It was almost midnight, a thought struck her suddenly from nowhere.. She kept asking this question to herself, several times till she couldn't think of an answer..Why me? this was what had kept her awake till the sun finally showered its light on the earth and it was time for atleast a part of the world to welcome a new day.
She kept thinking till she had a river of tears flowing from her beautiful but hopeless eyes.. why did i not know what i really want in life... why was i the one to be disappointed in me everytime. i had no one to talk to about all of this, who would ever understand.. would anyone want to know what was i going through.. everyone at home thinks of me as a little child till now, being the youngest has always given me this kind of a response from everyone in my family.. i dont blame them for this, i never told them what did i feel, they never asked me... i know what am i going through, i'm almost drowning in the middle of an ocean where there's no way out.. i am all alone surrounded by sea beasts who are ready to make a move on me and end all of this.. it is in my hands if i want to save myself.. do i want to? do i want this life.. do i have to step back or should i just surrender right here, she kept thinking.
Her mind was fairly divided on two sides.. "its all in your hands",she could hear someone crying out loud to me... but think of the ones who have loved you so much, think of the ones who will have an empty space in their lives forever, they will take that empty space to their graves, whereas if you decide to fight those empty spaces will be filled with your love, they will take beautiful and happy memories with them to their graves and not the guilt of not having you around.. think about them, you're being impulsive, is this what you want? dont you remember dad's words " never give up my doll, my daughter is a strong girl, she will never lose hope, she will never give up on herself" you have to fight back, dont give up, have faith, restart your life, give it a new direction.. think about him, he has always wanted your happiness, he will never be happy again if you lose this battle right now, dont let him live in this regret. have you not always wanted those eyes of his to twinkle.. dont take away his hope from him..
why should she? Anna could hear a faint voice which was second by second becoming clearer, this voice had a different aura to it, it felt more powerful and dark.. She was anxious to hear what would the other voice say next... She could feel the power that her voice held, she was desperate to hear more from her... "why should she think of anyone or anything, all she should think about is herself.. she has suffered enough.. she should suffer no more. we should in turn be helping her to end all her sufferings and send her to the happy place", the dark voice said to the other voice. "She has no reason to think twice, she should surrender herself to the sea beasts and let them satisfy their hunger or she should drown herself into the beastly ocean till she breathes her last breath.", "why should she think about the ones she loves.. more than happiness and good memories she's burdened them with disappointment and sorrows, they will survive without her existence in the world.. it would all be alright for them one day, she doesn't mean that much to anyone that they'd spend all their lives mourning for her.. and why even him, he left her stranded on a road which led to nowhere. and why wouldn't he, she broke his heart left him to pieces, what did she really expect from him, to hold on all is life even after all that had happened.. she has to let go of him too, he needs to be in a happy place, he needs to know what life really is.. she can never give him any of this, all she can bestow upon him is pain and life long troubles.. he deserves to be happy.. she has to leave everything thats holding her back."
"you need to go, don't be afraid, it is not that difficult, just a few minutes of pain and you are free from all the worries, go ahead darling, i know you can do this, you are my brave girl".. the dark voice said to Anna.
" please don't" the other voice cried " you will be ok, just deal with the pain a little bit longer and you'll be fine, this will give you nothing but loss, you will gain nothing from this act of yours"
A cloud of million thoughts had surrounded Anna.. She was unable to reason out who actually was right and who was wrong.. She wanted to listen to both the voices, but her decision had to be one.. She wanted to listen to the first voice and wanted to stay with all the ones that she loved but the other voice had had a greater impact inside her head.. It made sense, all what she said made sense, every single word of it... She still didn't know what to do but she had to make a decision and stay firm on it. She was running out of time, she had to decide whether she wanted to fight back or surrender
Anna suddenly out of nowhere, saw herself surrounded with needles, pills and razor blades... it was a sign, she knew what she had to do now... She took the razor blade in her hand and sliced her wrist, she could see shining red blood oozing from her veins.. She didn't feel the pain, she had known she wouldn't because this time it was her soul that was approaching death and being sent to an entirely new place.. She took the blade and staked it right through her heart.. This time she could feel the pain, the sweet pain, she could see her infancy, her childhood, her adoloscence, her teenage bidding her farewell, she then finally saw herself.. she was smiling, she was in a happy place.. She had taken the right decision... She had let herself free...
Next morning was not like the usual mornings, the birds did not sing a happy song to welcome the day, instead they mourned for Anna's death. The sky had an unusual sight, a lot no. of ravens could be seen flying all over Anna's house, seemed like they were rejoicing due to what took place the other night, a sign sent straight from SATAN proclaiming his victory.. Satan had finally won..
